Communication.

Come back when your ready. If you were ever here. I am. I know I am. He is. He knows I am. I don’t know him. I don’t.

I just..

Need a good nut.

I’ve seen A LOT of references to “black-on-black” crime to dilute the effectiveness of taking a stand against what has happened in #ferguson you can have several πŸ’ΊπŸ’Ί now. K. 😊 bye

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I dont want to know happiness without you

You fight for me. Even when Im fighting against you. I was soo mad at you yesterday… I thought you didn’t appreciate me. After talking to you today i see that Im just needy as hell. Even when i was nagging and complaining you still come down to where I was to fix something you didnt know was broken. I am broken. You know that. But you never throw that in my face. You just kiss me and tell me you will fix it. I love you.

You are Black Boy
With flesh and bone
Made of sticks and stones that may very well hurt you
The world wont see you with my eyes
Sweet, honest, full of I am more than my skin
You are different
Not belonging to any land
You carry the presence of a strong man
So people may confuse the feeling of inferiority with fear
See an angry dangerous man in your childhood years
You are not Tyrique
You are Thug
You are Thief
You generalization that puts conscious at ease
Black boy
You
Told me you were brown
You wore a smile that knew truth
My eyes melted you
You were a snowman wanting to experience summer
And i wanted to be the last person to shed light on you
Winter has always been my favorite season
But your a summer baby so I Understand
I cant stop black boy from being black man
I cant always hold your hand
The ground you walk upon will not always permit you to stand
Or walk
Or whistle
Or play your music as loud as you can
Reach out for help
Or raise your hands
Black boy
You are every reason to want to fight
You are civil rights
We think we cant get
You are
You are
Words that were told could never hurt you
But they did

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Hello love 😊

Anonymous:
How do you get your locs to look so perfect?

I really need to check my messages more often! Lol I can’t take any credit. I go to a loctition

christymarie:
He does ask your name and Ty's sometimes. He's at or just under 6 foot with a thin mustache.

Is he artistic?

missmelanin:
My roots are locked and my ends are curly tooo😫😫😫😫

I suffered with loc identity for a long time. They are perfect. So are yours love 😊

Im not always easy to deal with…

Last night I talked to my boyfriend about my fear to have another child while not being married or starting a family where my son does not feel included. I wish I could shield tyrique from harsh realities life will hand him. I wish I could just give him everything he deserves in all aspects of his life even if its not suppose to come from me. I do.

I love my man.

Never has anyone made me feel so high. He is such a giver and it make me want to give to him even more

Just because.

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Currently..

Im convinced the universe hates me. When i said I was ready for any test god had for us I thought I really meant it. I had no idea.

I look like i did it. I would think I did. I don’t know how i’m gonna recover from this. At first I thought it was a sick joke. ( idk if you ever had a moment where you knew you were in deep shit and just wanted to wake up and it all be a dream. That’s where I am) Ive pinched myself. Called Enock and Khari. Cried like a baby because im scared, but i cant cry to him because that will make me look more guilty even though im a victim of some crazy ass random circumstance.

I thought i had truly met my soulmate when I met Maurice. everybody saw him but i was completely blind. He grew me. Mentally, Physically and Emotionally. I was in the bed for 3 entire days when I met his heartbreak. I never felt so close to death and life with anyone in my entire life. It took me a long time to walk away from his grasp. I still feel like I can never truly get away from him.

When I started dating cali i blocked Maurice in my phone because i knew as sure as the earth rotates around the sun that he would never let me go, As long as i didn’t see him calling or texting I made up a story in my mind that he had moved on and felt no need to reach out to me.

I am so happy. For the first time in a long time. I could feel something coming but I could never put my finger on it. It came with signs that I dismissed.

Now its my face. And im not as ready as i claimed i was.