Im convinced the universe hates me. When i said I was ready for any test god had for us I thought I really meant it. I had no idea.
I look like i did it. I would think I did. I don’t know how i’m gonna recover from this. At first I thought it was a sick joke. ( idk if you ever had a moment where you knew you were in deep shit and just wanted to wake up and it all be a dream. That’s where I am) Ive pinched myself. Called Enock and Khari. Cried like a baby because im scared, but i cant cry to him because that will make me look more guilty even though im a victim of some crazy ass random circumstance.
I thought i had truly met my soulmate when I met Maurice. everybody saw him but i was completely blind. He grew me. Mentally, Physically and Emotionally. I was in the bed for 3 entire days when I met his heartbreak. I never felt so close to death and life with anyone in my entire life. It took me a long time to walk away from his grasp. I still feel like I can never truly get away from him.
When I started dating cali i blocked Maurice in my phone because i knew as sure as the earth rotates around the sun that he would never let me go, As long as i didn’t see him calling or texting I made up a story in my mind that he had moved on and felt no need to reach out to me.
I am so happy. For the first time in a long time. I could feel something coming but I could never put my finger on it. It came with signs that I dismissed.
Now its my face. And im not as ready as i claimed i was.
If i could choose to to be with anyone i wanted
I have a different connection with him. I am enjoying this journey. Learning him and in turn learning me.